health crisis I've been faced with, we have been delayed a bit. And to be honest, I've been very apprehensive about this year. But with much prayer and everyone on board for a smooth-sailing year, we are about to embark.
I use the phrase 'smooth-sailing' lightly, because in our six years of homeschooling, we've never had a smooth year. In fact, I would consider our years more like sailing on an ocean that is very unpredictable, with beautiful, clear skies for a few days, followed by raging storms that tosses us about to and fro, and even threatens to sink us to the bottom of the sea at times. But thankfully, we always manage to make it to the safety of the shore - but only barely. I expect this year will be no exception, because, well, that's just how life is.
But what has changed is my way of thinking and dealing with situations that arise. If there's anything I've learned from this whole experience of finding out that I have a terminal illness, it is - live life for today. One day at a time and no more. Enjoy THIS day. Each day is precious and I will not let myself worry and stress over schedules and deadlines. I want it to be more of a positive experience for us, instead of trying to live up to what they say we should be doing. Who is 'they' anyways? Have you ever thought about it? I'm not a law breaker, so I will still stick to our state guidelines, but on my terms.
My children may not be rocket scientists, they may never be doctors or lawyers. They will probably end up with what is considered a mediocre job, but so? So what. My hope for them is that they enjoy what they do, they contribute to humanity and that they live their lives knowing a Savior who died for them. I want them to have the best in life, but not at the cost of being miserable with their lives, because being rich, having fancy cars, homes and status will never fulfill the emptiness that comes with that kind of life that they tell us to have. And that's all I'll say about that. :)